The Best Way I Know How
As I sit at my desk this morning my mind is swirling with thoughts. One of which is how I can’t wait for 5 o’clock to get here and for the weekend to start… but that’s not what this blog is about. Mostly the thoughts in my head stem from a conversation I had last night. After a great meal and a little dip/push into the pool, a few of us weren’t quite as in a hurry to get home. Instead, we pulled up a few chairs and enjoyed a beautiful evening under the stars. The four of us that remained couldn’t be more different or come from more opposite paths. We are nurses, computer wiz’s and personal shoppers. Our pasts and our current job titles are drastically different yet we have all managed to find each other and find a common ground.
On that dark pool deck the walls came down and the four of us were being honest. Honest about where our hearts are. Honest about our past. Honest about our feelings. At times when the conversation turned to heartbreak and disappointment I had to bite my tongue. Because part of me wanted to get up and scream that what they were calling pain was nothing in comparison to what life has the ability to throw and you. Part of me wants to tell them that they are so fortunate to have been given the opportunity to walk away. Part of me is jealous of their idea of pain, wishing that that was all I knew. Part of me is angry at them for not seeing the underlying blessing. Part of me falls in love with them that much more for allowing me to remember what it is like to navigate the world as an “uber single”.
So, I sit in silence not knowing how to communicate any of that.
Communication (at least verbally) has never been my strongest asset. I have a tendency to walk away from a conversation rehashing it in my brain wishing I had said something different or explained something better. In my mind I have these great ideas, but the words somehow get lost. I have realized that the (lack of) communication was one of my biggest contributions to the demise of “us”. Its been a journey within itself to realize that fault and claim it. (That’s for you Eric.)
What I did walk away with last night (err.. this morning) was knowing that we are all on a journey. We are faced with various obstacles that allow us to grow and learn. We learn what we are capable of. We discover who we are. The challenges we come upon are given to us on purpose. Nothing is by accident. It was very much a reminder that God knows what we need. Last night, my needs were met by a type of communication amongst friends that goes way beyond words.
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