Moments Worth Mentioning

I did something this morning that I had all but sworn I would never do again. Just about two years ago I made the decision that I wasn’t ever going to set foot in the church that had so horribly turned their backs on me. At the time, I felt as though I was being judged and ridiculed for the events in my life. It took an extraordinary amount of courage to go to them to ask for help and understanding. In return, I was given a scarlet letter and an unbelievable amount of guilt. Although I LOVED the church, the people were too much. I had written them off for good. Or so I thought.

I have had it in my mind ever since I have been back in town that I wanted to return to my church. I really can’t explain the reasoning behind my need to go back. Selfishly, I wanted to walk though those doors with my head held high, almost as proof that I had “survived”. Mostly, I had begun to realize that I have missed my southern baptist roots. Some good hallelujah music seemed to be just what the doctor ordered.

So, I got up this morning and made the 45 minute drive back to my old town and my old church. I walked in, found my old seat and found amazing comfort in the familiar faces. I caught a few awkward glances and immediately smiled. Amazingly, the message today was titled “A Blessing or a Curse? You Decide!” I have no doubt that my old church was exactly where I was supposed to be this morning, awkward glances and all. In all honestly, I’m pretty sure the strange looks my way where people trying to figure out how they knew me. After all, its been two years…

As I got back into my car to leave I couldn’t help but feel completely healed. (If that’s even the right word?) I’ve come a long way, and it feels amazing to be so content and comfortable. Forgiveness is good… Both to give and receive!!!

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